First day of the new year. Sunny.
When Qin Shaosheng got up and opened the door, he saw Jiang Yishan wrapped thinly and huddled on the sofa.
The heating in the living room wasn’t turned on, so the temperature was very low. Thinking that the other party was pretending to be pitiful again, he paid him no mind. But even after he washed up1洗漱 – Not a bath. Just washing the face and rinsing the mouth and ate breakfast, Jiang Yishan lay still and quietly.
In the end, Qin Shaosheng couldn’t be at ease. Walking over, he heard Jiang Yishan breathing heavily. His cheeks were flushed, and his lips were pale and bloodless. He reached out to touch his forehead, and it turned out that, apart from his body burning, his hair was also wet. He didn’t believe that a grown adult like Jiang Yishan wouldn’t take care of his own body, so this was obviously intentional.
Qin Shaosheng angrily shook Jiang Yishan’s shoulder. “Get up!”
Jiang Yishan was burning up badly. When he woke up in a daze and saw Qin Shaosheng, he couldn’t help but rejoice in his heart. He took Qin Shaosheng’s arm, and said in a soft, nasal voice, “Shaosheng…My head hurts so much…”
Qin Shaosheng yanked the man up from the sofa and said in a cold voice, “Change your clothes and go to the hospital. ”
Roughly pulled up by Qin Shaosheng, Jiang Yishan embraced Qin Shaosheng’s waist. “I won’t go.”
“How long are you going to keep up this scene?”
“I have no one to take care of me when I go to the hospital now. Those who come to see the fun would only laugh at me. Don’t leave me alone to go to the hospital,” said Jiang Yishan miserably. “Shaosheng, don’t be so cruel.”
He was manipulating him again. Qin Shaosheng only felt like there was a fish bone stuck in his throat2 如鲠在喉 – very upset and needing to express one’s displeasure, and he was even more disgusted.
Jiang Yishan saw that Qin Shaosheng’s face was full of impatience, and with no sign at all of going soft. He was stabbed in the heart again, and he said in a panic, “I know I’m willful and selfish. I just don’t want you to go.”
Jiang Yishan’s eyes were red from the high fever, and his expression looked a little crazy.
Qin Shaosheng frowned.
“I don’t want you to go, and I’m not going to the hospital. I’m not going anywhere.” The sick, feverish, and muddle-headed Jiang Yishan was a bit annoying3胡搅蛮缠 – one who keeps pestering. He clung tightly to Qin Shaosheng’s waist and wouldn’t let go. “I don’t want you to go.”
He was very sad. Qin Shaosheng obviously knew he had a fever, but he didn’t care. He didn’t kiss him, and didn’t hold him in his arms. He just wanted him gone.
“I don’t feel well… Hug me…” Jiang Yishan begged sadly. “I don’t feel very well…”
A cell phone rang in the room.
Qin Shaosheng pulled the man off his body and threw him on the sofa. He went to the room and answered the call from his elder brother in City B. His elder brother asked him, “Why didn’t you come back yesterday? Mom and Dad waited for you at home for a long time.”
“The work just ended yesterday.”
The elder brother was silent for a moment. He asked, “Was it because you saw what happened to Jiang Yishan that you didn’t come back?”
“I’ve said before all that should be said when I advised you to go home. Jiang Yishan is a man of uncertain temperament and is easily tempted by the outside world. You’ve seen what he has done over the years. His bad conduct and dishonest tactics do not suit you.”
“Back then, Mom and Dad didn’t say anything wrong when they disagreed with you two being together. If you know, come back as early as possible.”
Qin Shaosheng lowered his eyes and said, “I know, ge4哥 – neutral term of address for an older brother or any older man, who’s not quite old yet in age.. I’ll go back on the seventh day. Say Happy New Year to Mom and Dad for me.”
“Say those words yourself when you come back and kneel before our patents,” said his brother before hanging up.
Jiang Yishan, who was left on the sofa by Qin Shaosheng, was stunned for a while. When he got back to himself, he followed Qin Shaosheng into the bedroom. He got up, and his unsteady legs accidentally bumped into the coffee table. Hearing that Qin Shaosheng was leaving on the seventh, he couldn’t care less about the pain.
Jiang Yishan’s eyes were red. He stared at Qin Shaosheng and murmured, “You’re leaving.”
Qin Shaosheng put down his phone.
“You’re really going back.” Jiang Yishan had a splitting headache at the thought of it. His chest heaved, and he couldn’t breathe. “What can I do to keep you from going?”
Qin Shaosheng didn’t speak.
“At that time, you said you wouldn’t see me anymore, and that you’d let me go and be a big star… I won’t be a star anymore. I won’t be a star, is that good?” Jiang Yishan was on the verge of collapse. “I won’t do anything anymore.”
He didn’t want anything. He just wanted to go back to the beginning properly.
Qin Shaosheng didn’t even glance at his sickly appearance.
Being repeatedly treated with indifference, Jiang Yishan could hardly keep his back straight from the pain in his heart. “How can you not… not listen to my explanation… I know I was wrong…”
“What’s there to explain?” Jiang Yishan looked up and saw Qin Shaosheng’s face that had a rare angry look. The man said angrily, “If it hadn’t been for your situation this time, would you have come back? I’ve been waiting for you here for two years5 In my old translations, this was 4 years. The raw source for my old tl was from an aggregator site, but this time, I’m referring to the official site. 2 years should be the actual number. I will update the future chapters when I get to editing them., and I haven’t seen you come back.”
It was true that Jiang Yishan completely came to his senses because of this incident, but he came here because he knew he was wrong.
“It’s my fault, I know. I know I was wrong…” Breathing under a high fever hurt so much that both his heart and lungs hurt badly. Jiang Yishan argued muddleheadedly, “I was a star when I graduated. At that time, so many people liked me. How could you expect me to give it up?”
Qin Shaosheng was so annoyed that he lost his patience and asked, “So what do you want me to do? Forgive you, reconcile with you, go home and continue to support you unconditionally, and be your sugar daddy6The raws actually use 金主 (golden owner) + 情人 (lover). Golden owner is slang for a financial backer.?”
“That’s not what I mean.” Jiang Yishan spoke breathlessly. “I don’t want you to help me with anything. I just want you to be with me. I don’t want anything anymore…”
Qin Shaosheng thought Jiang Yishan was unreasonable. “Did I spoil you so much that you felt that as long as you admit your mistake and come back to me, I must agree with you?”
“Shaosheng… Don’t say that…”
Jiang Yishan knew that what Qin Shaosheng said was right, and that he didn’t have to agree with him. He was used to being spoiled by Qin Shaosheng before, so he didn’t understand how rare his sincerity was.
He knew it in his heart, but how could he admit it?
Qin Shaosheng used to spoil him so much, how did he change? It was Jiang Yishan who changed first, becoming greedier and greedier.
He wanted to be famous, but he also wanted Qin Shaosheng. He hated to part with the former, so he put aside the latter.
But what’s wrong with wanting to be popular?
Jiang Yishan’s mind was a mess, and he spoke disorderly, “I want to be popular, but your family doesn’t like me, so I can’t be popular. I admit it, and I give up.”
“What does my family have to do with whether you are popular or not?” Qin Shaosheng said mercilessly. “You can’t be popular because of yourself. Before your voice was ruined, you were unwilling to listen to other people’s suggestions, and you offended your seniors. After that, you wanted to rely on your face to make money, but you refused to refine your performing skills.”
“I couldn’t help it…”
“Right, because you can’t buy hype without money, and without hype, you are nothing. You say you can’t get good scripts and good productions, but you don’t think about the fact that your focus is all on hype. You take on all those shoddy shows that make fast money, which investor or director would want you? After your scandal, nobody wanted to help you. Think about what you usually do. You suppress your peers and buy black materials to grab their resources. Who dares to be friends with someone like you?”
He had heard these words. He knew all of it, but he couldn’t help it. He lost his mind because he was unable to let go of the flashy, superficial word. And when Qin Shaosheng said it himself, it was like picking the bones and peeling the skin. It hurt so much that he couldn’t breathe.
“My family not liking you has nothing to do with whether you’re a man or not, or whether you’re a star or not. And they are not bored enough to interfere in your career. If they really wanted to suppress you, do you think we could’ve muddled along for a few months when we first came to City A?”
Jiang Yishan froze in place.
He had always thought that he was hopeless7郁郁不得志 – to be depressed when your ambitions are not fulfilled because of the Qin Family. At that time, the agency advised him to break up with Qin Shaosheng because of this. They all said that he abducted Qin Shaosheng, and that the Qin Family wouldn’t let him go.
Now it seemed that all along it was his fault. He believed whatever others said, was short-sighted, and only cared about immediate interests.
He was so stupid.
“My family said that you were too young and immature. I used to think it wasn’t a big deal, and that you’ll understand when you grow up. But then…”
But then it turned out the Qin Family had said nothing wrong.
Qin Shaosheng was extremely disappointed. “You’re a person with high eyes, low hands8眼高手低 (idiom) – High eyes, low hands. To have high standards but little ability; to be fastidious but incompetent, and an impetuous heart.”
“Stop it…” Jiang Yishan shivered from the cold, and the hot temperature when he breathed made his mouth and nose painful. “Please… stop talking.”
Tears whirled in his eyes. Jiang Yishan bit his lip to hold back his emotions. He didn’t want Qin Shaosheng to think that he was pretending to be pitiful and that he was selling misery again. However, his tears still flowed.
He could listen to anyone who said those things, and could stand it when anybody accused him. But this time, it was Qin Shaosheng, the Qin Shaosheng who once couldn’t possibly speak heavily against him.
The gap was too big.
The pain made him want to die.
Jiang Yishan’s mind was burnt with what Qin Shaosheng said just now, and he said between sobs, “I’ve always thought… I’ve always thought I was so close, so close to becoming famous, so close to having the courage to come back to you…”
He had thought he was lacking because of others, and never thought it was because of himself.
Because of the Qin Family’s attitude, he was determined to make a difference and become popular. He had always relied on this mindset. Now, he realized that the Qin family did not look down on his profession but on himself, and he had done so many wrong things.
He was ridiculed by the whole internet, abandoned by the company, and had his investors withdraw their support. The liquidated damages hollowed out his property, and if it weren’t for him still having the key to this house, he wouldn’t even have a place to live.
He got his retribution.
But Qin Shaosheng was still leaving. This was a big blow to him.
Jiang Yishan felt his vision darkening before his eyes. He said dazedly, “Cough, cough… You’re leaving. You don’t want me… cough.”
Qin Shaosheng wanted to say something, but after seeing Jiang Yishan bleeding from his nose, his expression changed.